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Hanna 'Apip' Afifa
Trying

I'm trying my best not to text you
or to call you
but apparently you seem like a drug to me

You'll never text me first
nor call me
haish that is a
BUMMER
Emotions

Every single emotions I have just died
it went away
when you threw everything away
So now I dont have emotions
Lost

I get lost,
I dont know what's going on
I dont know if you still want me,
I dont know how are things are between us
I dont know what I mean to you anymore
I hate cursing

I dont really curse
I think people are stupid
cause they thing saying f*** is cool,
calling people b*tch can make them someone

Helo,
It's stupid to say those words

EXCEPT
when you're mad and angry
or frustrated

So
whenever you see me cursing
you know what it means
Lalalal

I shall not erupt,
LALALAALAL
I shall just chill about it
Dreaming with a broken heart - John Mayer

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
Then waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my , roses in my hands?

Would you get them if i did?
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
Dreaming with a broken heart - John Mayer

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
Then waking up is the hardest part
You roll outta bed and down on your knees
And for a moment you can hardly breathe
Wondering was she really here?
Is she standing in my room?
No she's not, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The giving up is the hardest part
She takes you in with her crying eyes
Then all at once you have to say goodbye
Wondering could you stay my love?
Will you wake up by my side?
No she can't, 'cause she's gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

Now do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my hands?
Do i have to fall asleep with roses in my , roses in my hands?

Would you get them if i did?
No you won't, 'cause you're gone, gone, gone, gone, gone....

When you're dreaming with a broken heart
The waking up is the hardest part
Fighting back

I'm fighting
to hold back these tears
these tears that is rolling down my cheeks
cause of you

I dont know why
does this hurt so bad
a sharp pain
is felt through my heart

I'll be lying if suicide has never crossed my mind
cause it did,
a couple of times,

I'll stay here
still loving you
while watching you be happy

there's so many unanswered questions
but I guess it will never be answered

it's broken into million and trillion pieces
and I guess there's no way back from this
I really did love you
I still do
I just dont understand WHY?
How is it possible?

I am still confused
what happened during
and what's happening now
I miss you, I miss us

I miss what we had,
I miss those times
I just miss you that much
KILL ME

LET ME FUCKING DIEEEE
She belongs to him

I guess she belongs to him
I cant go against it,
I cant avoid it anymore

They belong together
and I'm not a part of it
I'm glad she knows what she wants

that is the fact, and
I have no idea what role I've been playing
for the last two months
Quote

Never give up thing that is great,
you'll never know when will it come back

Never give up on something that makes you smile
talking to blog

yes , I only express my thoughts and feelings to my blog
no more posting it on twitter,
no more posting it on facebook.
it's just me and my blog

Honestly speaking,
rough day rough night.
It wasnt supposed to end that way
but things just happens
somethings arent meant to happen

We lost football,
the only consolation was the charity home visit
it was great seeing them smiling laughing
it was a great joy being able to contribute it
even if I only brought pizza

I just woke up from a long nap
I cried myself to sleep
thinking I've let something so awesome
go,

I guess
it's the best thing for her

Sometimes, when we're in love
we have to let it go,
if it comes back, great
but if it doesnt, it was never meant to be

I love you, I will always do
I died

I literally died,
Anything

I would do anything
just to feel what I felt for the last two months with you
Anything
Mistake

My biggest mistake was not being able to appreciate you
being too clingy, being too pushy,
I failed as a boyfriend, I failed to keep my promises
I failed miserably,

How I wish I could go back in time
to make things right
but that is impossible to happen
I would beg you for ONE more chance
but u gave me one too many,
and I just blew it off
big time

I'm writing this post
with a broken heart,
with a dead soul
with tears rolling down my cheeks
knowing the best thing I've ever had
is GONE
forever

I have to withdraw myself from her life
to make way for better things for her

His imperfection is perfect to her.
It came out of her mouth.
and I'm glad she said that
I would want her to be with the person
who is opposite of me,
I'm glad that guy has arrived

I'm sorry for everything Heeda Syafiqa
To me, you're the best, nothing would change my feelings towards you
I keep my love towards for a long time,
I cant change it anymore,
It will kill me slowly
but it's the only thing I could hold on to
knowing that I love you.
that is only thing I can hold on to.

I'm sorry, I cant help it.
I really do love you,
HOW COULD I BE SUCH A FOOL
letting the one that I love soo much
disappear into the mist.

I'm dying slowly,
My heart is beating slower and slower
My brain cant process things properly
and my soul has just left my body

all I can do is study,
and pray that you'll come back,
cause there's a hole in this heart
and only you Heeda Syafiqa
can make this heart a WHOLE

I love you, soo soo much
Pingu, Gummybear, Gummyworm, Munchkins, Sayang
and the best. baby.

I love you, I really do
Stay

I never wanted this day to come
A day when we stop sharing one heart
the day when I feel this relationship is put on hold
I hope for that

I'll always love you,
no girl made me feel like this,
and I hope you will again.

It kills me that we're not together
but if it's for the best
it's for your own good.
that is the only consolation about this

Heeda Syafiqa
You didnt have to be beside to make me feel so in love with you,
even with you being in Johor and me being in PJ
I still love you as if we we're 5 mins away
To me you're the best that I've ever had,
it's gonna be tough to replace you
I dont think I can.
your personality your bimboness, your bubblyness
You being yourself
that made me fell for you after 3 days,
Something about you that I felt unique that made me want to be with you

I'm sorry I couldnt make this work,
You mean the world to me,
I'm not sure when will i come back to your life,
because it's so freakin difficult becoming a friend
becoming someone who cant call you names
who cant tell you that I love you
I wished things were different but
your happiness means the most to me

I Love You Heeda Syafiqa
I hope this isnt the end of Mr and Mrs Awesome
Cause I believe that we could be smth special

I really do, I really do
Pushed Away

Are you pushing me away?
I'll pretend like nothing is going on
Getting Used to It

I should chill about her talking to her ex,
he's just a close friend of hers, right?
I hope so. It's gonna be weird and all
but hopefully he doesnt cross the line again
Once or twice were alright
But please boy dont cross the line again

I'm trusting you to talk to her, to be a close friend
so
dont cross the line,

She wants, I want

I am confused really,
I know she loves me (she says she does)
She says she doesnt want us to be too committed to this relationship
I do love you bee, but I dont know how much do you love me anymore?
I know it's tough to be away from each other
being in LOVE with someone you've never met.
But I honestly trully believe that I love you
Do You?

Heeda Syafiqa,
I know I'm the overprotective type and easily get jealous
Cause I am born that way,
I know you are at the stage where you want to know everyone,
but please bee, I hope you know your boundaries.
I dont want the same thing to happen to us when Harriz came into our relationship
We almost threw everything away because of him
I just hope you know I'm overprotective and jealous kinda boyfriend
yeaah it sucks I know but I'm trying my best not to feel anything,
not to get jealous and all. I am trying
I want you to know I really do LOVE you, more than anything in the world
I couldnt leave you because of anything.
Everyone is against what we're doing. Long Distance Relationship
'Never work' 'You'll guys will end stuffs soon' heard em all
but I want to prove them wrong, and with you
that is what I want to do
I just hope you know how much I really do love you
Knowing People

We all have gone through this stage,
When we wanna meet new people, get to know em all,
This is the stage where you realised that who are you real friends
and who is just an acquaintance.

It's two different definition

Friends -A person whom one knows, likes, and trusts
Acquaintance - knowledge of a person or thing

It's a whole different meaning to it.

After that particular stage, you realised your real friends
whom you can really depend on,
that will be there for you,
Will sacrifice his or her time for you,
those are your real friends.

By now many of us would know who they are,
look through into your phonebook lists
and ask yourself, who would you call when you need help the most
and if you call that person, that person will be there for you

This is the only place I could express my feelings about stuffs, because not many people read this.

Heeda Syafiqa, baby
I dont mean to sound or be overprotective, you know I love you, love you more than a lot of things in the world. You're in that stage of getting to know new people, it's good but at the same time be careful. I wont say that I'm fine with you getting to know new people, reply your guy followers tweets, especially em you've never met or talked before, just through twitter. I just get uncomfortable because never talk to strangers. I just hope you'll reduce it cause I cant force you to stop it, and be careful about what you say and the information you give em. You reply their tweet all the time. It disturbs me but I trust you, more than anything.

I love you Heeda Syafiqa, more than anything in the world. I really hope things will work out for us cause I've broke the biggest rule in a relationship, fall madly in love with the other person